Fear of Failure Keeps Me at #98

One of the things that I’ve learned already, just from making this list, is it’s funny how easily I get excited about projects that involve writing… and how no one really shares my enthusiasm. It’s not that I don’t have people around me that are totally awesome and supportive—it’s that I don’t have any people around me that are as wrapped up in the world of writing as I am.

Also, I just love a good project. If it involves writing, even better, but any kind of creative fun (usually found on the internet) is a bit like crack to me. I.just.can’t.stop. But, when you’re at a project alone—it’s easier to quit, easier to forget about, easier to get bored with the premise. So, I’m going to have to really work hard on keeping this project a part of my life in 2007.

I’ve been stuck on my 100 things list. Stuck at 98. Only two more and I would finish, but I’m stalling for time. Or, perhaps more accurately, I’m just plain old stalling. I have a habit of not finishing things. Of discarding things that don’t turn out the way I want. I have an exaggerated fear of failure—a fear so exaggerated that it’s kept me from doing things I’ve wanted to do. This isn’t okay. So, a lot of things on my list address fear—and doing something in spite of that fear.

I guess in the next two weeks I am on the search for two meaningful things to round up my list. Two things that really mean something. Or, maybe I’m just stalling—afraid of the 100 possible ways to fail in 2007. Either way, I’m trying to move forward. I will have a list of 100 before 2007. It’s important to me. I’ve got to make it a priority instead of excusing lurking behind it.
If you’ve started a list, or wanted to start one but haven’t been able to bring yourself to do it… why are you holding back? What are your hang-ups? And by looking at those, do you see something in yourself that you can address in your list?